Hey guys ! Okay I know I've been away for too long but like I explained in my YouTube video which I hope you guys checked out , I am finding it hard to juggle both . I need inspiration plus I don't want to repeat myself on my YouTube channel and blog . Anyway lately I've been having what I would call self love issues , confidence issues or whatever you may want to call it . Basically I have been "hating" myself . As you all know or I think you would have discovered; I AM FAT and I have been fat for as long as I can remember . I've always struggled with my weight . Been on so many diets , lost , added, etc . So last year I lost a lot of weight though the Cambridge diet which I'm planning on starting again and which I have succeeded once , tried to start again twice and failed twice . I've been thinking a lot about my weight , the health risks , the societal risks ,(yes to me they're risks )etc .I recently went to the doctor to do a full check up and according to the report , I'm healthy but the only problem is my weight . The thing is I know I'm overweight and I know I need to loose weight . Now as you know I love Youtube ,you tubers ,and so on .so one of my favourite you tubers is
Chanel Boateng .I'm posting this from my phone so I'll link her channel later . Anyway she's a plus size blogger and vlogger like myself and I've been watching her channel for some time . She's done so many videos on body image and self confidence and I I'm like " wow she's so brave" , because I'll find it hard to talk about such a sensitive topic like that but u know what , I'm starting not to care .i'm a selfie person. I hardly take full pictures because I feel ashamed or self conscious or anything u wanna call it but you know what I love myself and I know it's a working progress . Thus self confidence thing , it doesn't come that easy but I'm trying . Im gonna try my best to stay healthy and I'm not gonna do it for anyone . Doing it for myself . Now back to my diet talk . The Cambridge diet , why I failed , because I did it for the wrong reasons . I did it because I wanted the compliments , not because I wanted to do it for myself and that's something Chanel talks about .it has to start from you well in this case me .now this picture above , I just took it a couple of mins ago .i know some people might say "oh it's because you're wearing black ,black makes u look slimmer","oh it's the angle" bla bla bla .i don't care ! The fact is that I am proud of myself for taking that picture today because for like almost a month , I have been avoiding a mirror because I thought I looked disgusting and today I felt pretty and I know I am beautiful and am working on a better me , so please allow me to grow in peace .im sorry this blog post is all over the place but it's exactly the way I'm thinking,I'm writing . Have a nice day guys !!😊😊
